ARGH
I
can’t
deal
with
this
right
now
.
So of course I’m going to shoot myself in the foot a couple times before it’s over.
Archive for February, 2010
I
can’t
deal
with
this
right
now
.
So of course I’m going to shoot myself in the foot a couple times before it’s over.
I like too much for things to make sense.
Mars Row Manager Supplemental Question: Write a personal ad for yourself in 25 words or less.
Adventurous college girl, enjoys movies with explosions, alternative rock, cartwheels, rock climbing, and baking cookies. Seeking excellent cook, good humor, and a hint of insanity.
It’s a balmy 64 degrees here. Therefore I have forsaken the concept of sleeves, thrown my windows wide open, and re-adopted the concept of sleeves only to be able to roll them up and clean my room.
It’s pretty obvious already that the switch to WordPress is causing an exponential increase in blogging frequency. I am amused.
So here I am picking things up and wiping dust out from under them, and putting them back where they were. The floor is prickling my bare feet — a sure sign that the planned vacuuming will be well appreciated. I also can’t see any of the surface of my desk, which is kind of a problem. All I’ve done is sit and work on my futon for the last few weeks, which I’m sure is doing wonders for my posture. There’s something nice about cleaning, even if I’m sneezing with all the dust.
I work hard. I don’t, compared to some people I’ve met; but I know my priorities, and with the exception of my procrastination habits, I stick to my priorities. And I do well. Is that a crime? Is that a bad thing to want?
Two very conflicting interactions in the past 24 hours:
The thing is I do get bad grades. Less than optimal ones, anyway. For someone who’s hoping to be an M.D./Ph.D. candidate, my GPA is abysmally low. Of course, Daniel thinks this begs the question, “Why the hell do you want to do an M.D./Ph.D. anyway?”
Gosh, I dunno. Maybe because it’s what I want to do? Because doing research and fixing people makes me happy? Don’t doubt my life plan because it sounds like a lot of work — ever think that maybe I don’t mind working this hard because it’s something I like to do? I can’t just stand by and rely on sheer intelligence and bullshitting skill to get by. Just because everything worked out for Daniel (in terms of graduating and getting into grad school) doesn’t mean I’ll be that lucky. I’ll have lived five lifetimes before I get that lucky.
So maybe I’m not as intense and messed up as other premeds, but maybe it’s because I actually really want this and I know what’s important to me. So sue me if you think I shouldn’t work hard for something I want. (And you know what? Killing myself so far this quarter has gotten me two awesome midterm scores and a short story draft that I’m really proud of. So leave me alone.)
Sorry for the bitterness…
Hmm… notice something different?
WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED AROUND HERE?! Oh nothing but a little WordPress action. Funny, that.
With Haloscan on its last legs, I figured the time was right to convert everything to WordPress. It was a tedious process, considering WordPress doesn’t have Haloscan import capabilities (yet?), and toss in the fact that Kethadros has been updated via direct HTML editing or the janky PHP form and script I wrote way back when. Of course, what better time than my most insane weeks of the quarter to spend hours and hours copy-pasting blog posts and comments. But hey, I did it, and everything should be easier from here on out. All the old comments should be intact, although with potentially incorrect email addresses. But whatever.
I’m using one of the downloadable themes for the moment, because I really don’t have time to code an entire WordPress theme while still navigating my quarter from hell. (At the moment I should be working on a physics problem set and/or a molecular biology discussion paper; I also got 1 hour of sleep last night and a 2 hour nap this afternoon. I’m hyped up on caffeine for now!) So you’ll just have to bear with this non-Kethadros-y layout for now, and missing all the custom fields (currently, supposed to be, writing, etc.) and sidebar and who knows what else. But this way I can keep blogging without having to post both via PHP form and copy-paste that mess to the WordPress blog hiding in the background.
Enough for now. I’ve got other shit to do…
(Edit:) Btdubs, that means there’s an RSS feed now.